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Keep searching for the place to be.
Its not much further from here.
Or so they say.

I hate making decisions

The roads we take are more important than the goals we announce. Decisions determine destiny.
Frederick Speakman

We have a choice: to plow new ground or let the weeds grow.
Jonathan Westover

It does not take much strength to do things, but it requires great strength to decide on what to do.
Elbert Hubbard

When it is not necessary to make a decision, it is necessary not to make a decision.
Lord Falkland

I hate to see things done by halves. If it be right, do it boldly,--if it be wrong leave it undone.
Bernard Gilpin

The self is not something ready-made, but something in continuous formation through choice of action.
John Dewey

Decisions are the endless uncertainties of life that we'll not know if theyre right until the very end, so do the best you can and hope its right.
Lily Collins

Your life changes the moment you make a new, congruent, and committed decision.
Anthony Robbins

Once you make a decision, the universe conspires to make it happen.
Ralph Waldo Emerson

No answer is also an answer.
German Proverb

Guess if you can, choose if you dare.
Pierre Corneille

The strongest principle of growth lies in human choice.
George Eliot

A wise man makes his own decisions, an ignorant man follows the public opinion.
Chinese Proverb

I think that somehow, we learn who we really are and then live with that decision.
Eleanor Roosevelt

Some problems are so complex that you have to be highly intelligent and well informed just to be undecided about them.
Laurence J. Peter

It is our choices...that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities.
J. K. Rowling

If you limit your choices only to what seems possible or reasonable, you disconnect yourself from what you truly want, and all that is left is a compromise.
Robert Fritz

A weak man has doubts before a decision; a strong man has them afterwards.
Karl Kraus

A decision is what a man makes when he can't find anybody to serve on a committee.
Fletcher Knebel

The block of granite which was an obstacle in the pathway of the weak becomes a stepping-stone in the pathway of the strong.
Thomas Carlyle

The more alternatives, the more difficult the choice.
Abbe' D'Allanival

Every decision is liberating, even if it leads to disaster. Otherwise, why do so many people walk upright and with open eyes into their misfortune?
Elias Canetti

The first step to getting the things you want out of life is this: Decide what you want.
Ben Stein

All our final decisions are made in a state of mind that is not going to last.
Marcel Proust

An executive is a person who always decides; sometimes he decides correctly, but he always decides.
John H. Patterson

We must give lengthy deliberation to what has to be decided once and for all.
Publilius Syrus

The refusal to choose is a form of choice; disbelief is a form of belief.
Frank Barron

A decision made at night may be changed in the morning.
Samoan Proverb

Nothing is more difficult, and therefore more precious, than to be able to decide.
Napoleon Bonaparte

A peacefulness follows any decision, even the wrong one.
Rita Mae Brown

A weak man has doubts before a decision, a strong man has them afterwards.
Karl Kraus

I don't know.
Crystal Bay

Lets start

Be right back.
Out for lunch with family.
I'll blog about the first 10 days of NS at Home Team Academy soon.
So stay tuned!!!

the day before i went in

As usual, my day started with training at macritchie.
Today was special though.
We celebrated Amand and Roni's name day.
Given the opportunity to choose afternoon's training, we decided on having ball games instead of the supposed 6km run.
After morning training, lunch at coro.
ZiQiang, Lacus, MingSheng and Steph followed me to Nj to slack before afternoon's session.
Of all places to slack, I will choose either Macritchie or Nj.
I guess these are the places where I feel at home.
There will always be people there who I can hang with.
I don't know if I'm suppose to be happy about going in or not but yeah, life goes on.
I'll see what happens from tomorrow onwards.
And yeah, to everyone who had taken time off to hang with me, THANK YOU!
I'll see you guys around.

I realised something...

Home is not a very fun place to be at.
There's practically nothing to be done but sleep and clean the house.
Using the comp is no fun anymore.
Especially when there is no manga to read or games to play.
I want out!
I've been working till late at night for a few days lately.
Cant wait for pay day.
2 more working days.
After that, 1 week of slacking and then, in i go.
OFF GOES MY HAIR!

Phuket trip

Hmm. Ok. The trip was AWESOME!!! (most of it at least)
I shall just summarise it.
-Beautiful limestone park
-Awesome snorkeling trip
-Beautiful Manta ray
-Cute sea turtles
-Beautiful Manta ray
-Amazing Eagle ray
-Numerous moray eels
-Lionfish
-Nemo (clown fishes)
-Squids
-Sea snakes
-And a lot more which I don't know the name
-THE BEACH WAS LIKE WOAH!!!!

MANTA RAY
Seriously, when i saw it, HAHHAHAHAHA, i dont know what to say.
I was so happy.
Its beautiful!

Sweet dream or a beatiful nightmare?

Anyway, I is back. Took a really long break. Hmm. Let's see, after A's was prom.

Interesting photo. Prom wasn't so bad. Food was good or at least, I thought it was worth it. 5 course meal and I got full after the 3rd. A lot of people looked good. Goes to show how much dressing up can do.
Photos on facebook, duhh.
Ok, so after prom was over, took a day off before going back to training .
Damn was I fat/slow/weak, not that im skinny/fast/strong now.
Since it's off season now, we've been doing a lot of running, swimming, and gym.
Not so much paddling.
Need to lose weight badly or at least lose the fats.
Exams sucks.
Oh well.
After a few weeks of training, I went to malaysia with the njc canoeing team, for a holiday, not training.
Genting was frikkin cold.
Temperature below 15 degrees with strong winds.
Gabriel and I did a half-naked mile in the cold weather.
Quite refreshing actually.
Following that, was the theme park.
For 44rm, spend the whole day playing with the rides.
The worst was the pirate house thingy, a failure.
The most heart pumping was space shot.
The most fun was flying coaster.
And the rest was so-so.
Then, we went to KL.
Stayed at Capitol hotel.
Because I'm poor, there was no shopping for me.
Only another theme park day at Times Square.
Not that bad.
On the last night, me and a few others played cards while the rest were either sleeping or drinking.
Loser had to do push ups, 10 per card.
I did a total of 1013 pushups that night.
After that, we walked to Petronas Twin tower, about half an hour walk.
Malaysia is quite creepy at night unlike Singapore.
Erm, and now I'm back here in my room, blogging.
Training will resume again on Monday.
Till then,
I wanna wish you a merry christmas (x3)
from the bottom of my heart.

FUCK!

Its all about growing up.

Voice in the head: "Time to grow up kid!"
Me:"OK OK! After A's I'll try my best."

Emotional by Diana DeGarmo

Sometimes I get emotional
Sometimes I do some stupid things
Sometimes I say what I should just keep inside
Sometimes I'm sad about everything
Sometimes I'm mad and break some things
Sorry times 10 but you just got in the way

Don't give up now running away
I won't hurt you
Sometimes I'm just a pain
And that's the way it is
That's just the way I am

Sometimes I feel like crying
Laying down and dying
That's when I need you
Laughing's always easy, but sometimes I'm just scared you'll leave me
That's when I feel emotional
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You say I'm just impossible
Totally unpredictable
I'm just a girl get use to it
No big deal
You can't change me why would you try?
I'm no angel but I can make you smile
And that's the way it is
That's just the way I am

Sometimes I feel like crying
Laying down and dying
That's when I need you
Laughing's always easy but, sometimes I'm just scared you'll leave me
That's when I feel emotional

Don't give up
I won't hurt you
Oh, sometimes I'm just a pain
And that's the way it is
That's just the way I am

That's when I need you
Laughing's always easy but, sometimes I'm just scared you'll leave me
That's when I feel oh yeah
That's when I need you
Sometimes I get emotional
[fade]

That's just the way I am
Sometimes I feel like crying
Laying down and dying
That's when I need you
Laughing's always easy but sometimes I'm just scared you'll leave me
That's when I feel emotional