Good game

I want to row again and i want to row consistently. Seeing the scf rowers today made me realise how slow i am as compared to them and yet i am not training when im suppose to be. I wish i am a genius then i could train and still be smart. I want to be stronger, bigger and faster. I just want to improve myself. Im way too far behind the BEST. If only i could go join scf. Bet i'll improve much faster there. Next year maybe? I don't mind rowing everyday because i love to row. Being in nj, i hate it alot. Am i being held back from training because my of my lousy academic results? To me its very simple, i want to row and i want to enjoy rowing. Please don't make me hate canoeing just because i have to follow what others think is right. I know i've been quite rebellious at times but i guess sometimes i just cannot agree with what you think is right. Im going to fight not only in canoeing but also in studies. Please let me join scf after my promos. There are some things which i need to prove to myself for now.