Defeated

So now you may ask how we faired at penang? Well, we won gold for 20 crew men U-18, 10 crew open men, 20 crew mix and 20 crew woman. We lost men open 20 crew. And the difference between the our men 20 crew timing and the 20 crew mixed timing is a mere 2 seconds. If you ask if I'm satisfied with the results, I'd say yes. But somehow, a few people thinks otherwise. Well, considering how weak of a team we are now, I'd say we did ok. But no, some people had to say that we lost terribly which really pisses me off. I mean, we rowed for at least 2-3 races back to back. What do you expect, we humans get exhausted too. And today, to explain why we lost, people had to go blame each other and pointing out each other's weakness. Everyone have their own weaknesses and strengths. Why can't we accept that? If its about a team which do not focus on winning but on the right attitude and character, why do we bother if we win or lose. All that matters is that we give our best in a race, be it a K1 or a dragonboat. Its stupid. We're acting like sad kids who fights with their friends over something. Does it have to be like this after every lost? Call me a superstar but personally i want to improve to win something by myself. So, when it comes to team events, i will give my best but the results will mean nothing to me. When i race, i give everything i have. Its basic respect to your opponents. Holding back would simply means making fun of my opponents which is something i don't do. I also don't understand why we have to be so disappointed at our lost? Why can't we just accept the fact that we lost and look forward to train harder with an open mind? So what if there are teams better than us? If we were to win everything, then, there wouldn't be a point in competing would it? If you say that we lose because we are a team of selfish superstars, then i can say that the team you had are considered selfish too since the juniors you had turned out that way. It simply shows how concern you were of the well being of the team. You're pretty much selfish yourself. Where were you when the team had our problems? Did you even bother to ask about the situation of the team? As far as im concern, you have no right to scold anyone. And please stop using talent as an excuse for being slower than us. I'm sick of it. The reason NJ took me is so that i can contribute to the team by bringing back some medals and doing the school proud. And when i came in, i said that i'd do my best to improve and not be a burden to this team. So now, im working hard to pull my own weight and you're blaming me for being selfish?
I dont know what you want.