Friday, 24 October 2008

Responsibility

Not feeling very good at the moment. I've heard stories of people achieving things i can only dream of. It sucks to be the eldest. Every member of the family will be looking at you. From studies to sports and character.

I feel like I've forgotten how to be a good athlete. It feels as though I've turned back into my lazy self, one who just go through the motion in life. With no goals or motivation to do anything. Not in canoeing, not in studies.

SEACC trials coming up soon and i'm still feeling like this. Definitely not ready to compete in the trials let alone the real thing. Why?

If only there was no exams in school and training could be consistent. If it wasn't for the promos break I wouldnt be feeling like this. It's so troublesome to get back up again. I guess this is what it means when people say, the bigger you are, the harder you fall.

If only life was easy. No worries of failing, no pressure to succeed.

Wishful thinking.

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