Im left in the wake of the mistake

Today i had so many free periods. Training wasn't that bad. People have improved so quickly. Mileage phase is the best time for me to work on endurance. Whats done is done, you just leave it alone and don't regret it. This is something i've learnt from this pass few days. I cant turn back time to change the present. All i can do is carry on and try not to make the same mistake in the future. Losing my stuff, breaking promises, getting lousy results and also having a superstar attitude which i sometimes hate myself for it. This have to change. I cant let it happen again. One life, try to make it perfect. Promos in 2 months time and i got a lot to work on. No time for other stuff. I must do well for promos. I want to be a somebody and not a loser in life.