Selfish? I think not

Today's post is going to be about today's screwed up training. It started of well. After the 500m mark, one pair of k2 girls capped so i had to rescue them cause there were no t boats around. But thats not the problem. After rescueing them, i carried on with the other k1 guys. Then i realised that calvin couldn't keep up and that he was causing the k1 guys to go slow. So i decided to take him and let the other guys push the pace. I rowed with him for sometime until he capped. Again i had to do the rescueing. After rescueing, i continued with him until zhi kai came and took him for a short training in an apache. I went back to the guys. This time, i realise Edmund was lagging so i decided to take him and let the faster boats push the pace. So i took him for a few minutes until i decided to let bryan take him so that i can train. When i joined the pack, i realised QR was lagging. But this time i didnt take him. Instead, i insisted on pushing the pace. The fact that i was using a tiger and he was using a raptor really gets me mad when he's lagging. In addition, he does so much more training then me. He's not doing justice to himself. Its either that or he's training are all fake. I dont mean to shoot you or anything. Anyway, after training, boss called for pack up but instead of following his orders, i decided to train with zk for a mere 15mins? I wanted to make up for all the rescueing and the taking of slower boats during training. Its not that im trying to be a rebel or anything. And zk is only training today. If i dont row with him then i'll be racing with no k2 experience. How unfair is that? To make it worst, during debrief, it was fricking obvious that you were talking about me. The both of you. Just to let you know that im not angry with the fact that you were shooting me throughout the debrief but im angry because you didnt consider how much time i wasted during the rescueing and pacing. Is taking 15mins more wrong? Cant the team function without a qm to monitor the keeping of boats? If you dont like what i do then say it clearly. Use my name. DONT go and say " some of you here ". Refering to me then just say it clearly. Some people just have a F***ed up attitude which i cant stand at times. Its really sad to see you act that way.