Reminisce

Ever since i graduated from secondary school, my life had been such a bore. The people i hang out with are totally different and to be honest, I rather spend time with my sec school friends anytime then hang out with the people around me now. It’s just so different and quite amazing at how different people can be depending on how they were brought up. I mean, it’s not that it’s wrong or anything but I have yet to adapt. In a so-called ' good school ' compared to a random neighborhood school have its fair share of difference. For someone like me who comes from a neighborhood school which can be entered with a psle score of 188 to go to nj which is a 6-pointer school (I think) is a pretty big leap I would say. May be that’s why a lot of people think I’m weird and may be that’s why I can't find anyone like me there. Although I really try to enjoy the company I have, I really prefer those that I have in my sec sch. The teachers are better people, the food is nicer, there's more life, and there are basically everything I need to grow up there. I guess I have to move on if I want to keep improving. So here I am, in nj where I have to grow even more to be a better person. I don't really like it but I guess you can never have everything your way in life. It may be weird of me to say this but to be honest; I'm quite alone in that school. A place where people are generally rich. I still remember the days when I and my friends would spend our savings of the day to go to KFC to eat just because there were coupons to use. Ha-ha. I used to be able to find joy and laughter even when we're just talking. We don't need money or valuable possessions to be happy. We didn't even have to go anywhere. Just being around them brought me joy. And now, I can say that I’m usually putting up a fake smile to make the people around me feel happy. I’m tired of it. I can't always be happy right? I think I need some time off all this shit. I need to spend some time with my old friends. People who I really feel comfortable with.

I’m just tired